Chika's Site

Chika's Site http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/ This is a great and nice home to keep my stuff and broadcast my personality. Please enjoy your visit and feel free to leave some comments! Sat, 5 Jul 2008 11:18:47 -0000 Sat, 5 Jul 2008 10:08:18 -0000 Chika's Site http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/logo http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com 100 100 Kungfu Panda The first movie I watch with the kids in a movie theater! [the last time I watch movie in a movie theater was when I was pregnant with Syahna, which was 6 years ago http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/reviews/item/5 Sat, 5 Jul 2008 10:08:18 -0000 Laskar Pelangi Yea yea, this is a good book indeed. I adore Lintang for his brilliance, fall in love with the talented and eccentric Mahar and wish I could be as smart and brave and beautiful as Flo :D Ahhh, I'm just too happy that finally I finished a book after <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/reviews/item/2">this one</a>. And it was last year! arrrrrrrhhghghghg... I read to much books in http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/reviews/item/4 Sat, 5 Jul 2008 09:50:51 -0000 Greedy CodeBlocks? I have just checked using the Terminal<a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SG0oOgoKCogAAGKj@Y81"></a> <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SG0oOgoKCogAAGKj@Y81"><a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SG1qbAoKCogAAFj7Px41"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SG1qbAoKCogAAFj7Px41/Picture%2010.png?et=ynJViLJnn8wJrq3sE1%2BKrw&nmid=0" border="0"></a> </a> and Activity Monitor <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SG0oOgoKCogAAGKj@Y81"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SG0oOgoKCogAAGKj@Y81/Picture%206.png?et=QIbAwjoWegPEmR5ORK%2BkKw&nmid=0" border="0"></a> and observed that CodeBlocks does actually use more resources than XCode... Hmmm... http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/131/Greedy_CodeBlocks Thu, 3 Jul 2008 19:31:28 -0000 C vs C++, XCode vs CodeBlocks, Crypto vs Robotics <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SG0TRAoKCogAAEinDos1"></a><a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SG0TZgoKCogAAEjYQyk1"><img class="alignright" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SG0TZgoKCogAAEjYQyk1/Picture%204.png?et=xJrd87Sc0pAACSjNYJ82UQ&nmid=0" border="0"></a>Yeaaa yeaaaa, now I'm doing these things in paralel: developing my own code on <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.wordpress.com/2008/06/26/developing-simple-protocols/">simple protocols of crypto</a> using C and trying to help <a href="http://kusprasapta.multiply.com/">a friend</a> for a minor modification of his <a href="http://kusprasapta.multiply.com/journal/item/3/Robotics_From_Science_Fiction_to_Reality">robotics</a> programs in C++. I was used to CodeBlocks before I bought this Mac and found some problems to make CodeBlocks works on Mac, so I <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/53/Switching_from_Codeblocks_to_XCode">decided to switch to XCode</a> about 4 months ago. I'm comfortable using XCode for building my crypto codes now and was going to build the robotics code using XCode but for the sake of compatibility I have to build the robotics codes using CodeBlocks, since my friend is using CodeBlocks (on Vista, of course! :P ). <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SG0TRAoKCogAAEinDos1"></a><a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SG0TRAoKCogAAEinDos1"><img class="alignleft" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SG0TRAoKCogAAEinDos1/Picture%203.png?et=T2Y2CBRlH5zg5tV%2Cg8%2BxUA&nmid=0" border="0"></a>Well, then I have to make CodeBlocks work on Mac, and fortunately, <a href="http://rahard.multiply.com/">another friend</a> was visiting our lab and helped us to get things done and make <a href="http://prdownload.berlios.de/codeblocks/codeblocks-8.02-p2-mac.zip">CodeBlocks</a> running on my Mac! Thanks! Oh, one more thing to explain. I'm using C for crypto because it will be implemented to hardware so I need a fast and low level language for that. On the other hand, reffering to th... http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/129/C_vs_C_XCode_vs_CodeBlocks_Crypto_vs_Robotics Thu, 3 Jul 2008 18:05:03 -0000 The Spirits of Science (a re-post) After reading an interesting posting <a href="http://yutiariani.multiply.com/journal/item/246/Mathematician_Inside_Sociologist_Outside">here</a>, I decided to re-post this. I found something very interesting in the book I mentioned in the previous post (<a href="http://www.amazon.com/Beauty-Doing-Mathematics-Public-Dialogues/dp/0387961496">The Beauty of Doing Mathematics - Three Public Dialogues by Serge Lang</a>).There is a quote from von Neumann which says,<blockquote>"But still a large part of mathematics which became useful developed with absolutely no desire to be useful, and in situations where nobody could possibly now in what area it would become useful; and there were no general indications that it ever would be so. By and large it is uniformly true in mathematics that there is a time lapse between a mathematical discovery and the moment when it is useful; and that this lapse of time can be anything from thirty to a hundred years, in some cases even more; and that the whole system seems to function without any direction, without any reference to usefulness... This is true for all of science. Successes were largely due to forgetting completely about what one ultimately wan... http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/128/The_Spirits_of_Science_a_re-post Sat, 28 Jun 2008 05:32:39 -0000 Weird Way of Measurement <img class="alignleft" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SGF5igoKCnwAAA3IaKY1/Picture%201.png?et=meX0z%2CEGEd%2CJAkmutRbqGQ&nmid=0" border="0">I have a new way to measure my progress, ho ho ho. A screenshoot of my blog monthly archive that can directly tell me how much work I've done and how many progress I've written down as a report in my dull and dry loogbook of phd research <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.wordpress.com/">here</a>. Well, I've promised to myself (and to my official/unofficial advisors/supervisors) that I will do some writings on my progress and report it there. And there I go. Only 3 posting for June. [sigh] [will report some more, for any progress or any report on anything including the absence of any progress...] http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/127/Weird_Way_of_Measurement Tue, 24 Jun 2008 22:55:50 -0000 Transition - A Graphic Diary Hwaaaa! I have just finished reading one of the most interesting comics I have ever read. I don't read comics since I usually cannot follow the flow of the pictures and get lost in the middle of the story, but this one is great, I just read and enjoy it and laugh hard many times and wish that I could draw my thoughts and ideas like <a href="http://esduren.multiply.com">Tita</a>. The book is marvellous, want some more! I guess I will hunt for "Curhat Tita" very http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/reviews/item/3 Sun, 15 Jun 2008 10:19:00 -0000 Macbook : Decreasing Battery Capacity? [not really!] I have just noticed that my macbook battery capacity is decreasing! I bought this on mid-Feb and suddenly the capacity is only 95%, awww come on! I checked this using <a href="http://www.versiontracker.com/dyn/moreinfo/macosx/27425">coconutBattery 2.6.3</a> <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SFRCdwoKCnwAACrjB6E1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SFRCdwoKCnwAACrjB6E1/Picture%202.png?et=tnAYZ%2C4RZz6RxJ2O4sREow&nmid=0" border="0"></a><a href="http://rahard.wordpress.com/">My fellow mac-user</a> had warned me that mac's battery capacity decreases rapidly. He is using <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/IBook">iBook G4</a>, and I thought that flaw wouldn't apply to Macbook, but it does! Sigh! Is this related to some "good" or "bad" habit in charging the battery? I absentmindedly left my mac connected to the power outlet overcharged a few times, would that be the cause of this? I need some advice from other mac users like <a href="http://tkmaia.multiply.com/">tkmaia</a>, <a href="http://merlyna.multiply.com/">merlyna</a>, <a href="http://esduren.multiply.com/">esduren</a>, <a href="http://moyas.multiply.com/">moyas</a>, <a href="http://robymuhamad.multiply.com/">robymuhamad,</a> <a href="http://soshikyu.multiply.com/">sade</a> and <a href="http://www.littlepensieve.blogspot.com/">luche</a>. Are you guys experiencing the same thing? Or there is anyone has any tips to prevent this thing from going on, or at least slowing down the process, hi hi hi. Thanks! P.S: I forgot to keep the log of the battery condition, so I cannot tell you so much about the details! <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SFRE3woKCnwAAGJnGo41"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SFRE3woKCnwAAGJnGo41/Picture%203.png?et=jVPv%2B4wXJsYIe8WUX%2BsF5A&nmid=0" border="0"></a>Update: I did some calibration like suggested by<a href="http://junkr.multiply.com/"> junkr</a>, and the... http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/119/Macbook_Decreasing_Battery_Capacity_not_really Sat, 14 Jun 2008 22:30:38 -0000 Oh how I miss teaching... [sigh] <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SFKbFQoKCnwAACNxhQA1"><img class="alignright" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SFKbFQoKCnwAACNxhQA1/DSC00194.JPG?et=0uGRIVMROAl2c5qhbxSi%2CA&nmid=0" border="0"></a>Reading these paragraphs from <a href="http://wwnorton.com/catalog/spring97/surely.htm">this book</a> (which I still haven't finished reading yet) p.166 really makes me really miss my classes, my students and those what I often exaggerately call as "feeding my soul" activities... [sigh.. sigh..] As I quoted from the book, <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Richard_Feynman">Feynman</a> said: "If you're teaching class, you can think about the elementary things that you know very well. These things are kind of fun and delightful. It doesn't do any harm to think them over again. Is there a better way to present them? Are there any new problems associated with them? Are there any new thoughts you can make about them? The elementary things are easy to think about; if you can't think of a new thought, no harm done; what you thought about it before is good enough for the class. If you do think of something new, you're rather pleased that you have a new way of looking at it. The questions of the students are often the source of new research. They often ask profound questions that I've thought about at times... http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/118/Oh_how_I_miss_teaching..._sigh Fri, 13 Jun 2008 16:32:36 -0000 Safecrackers, computer spies and growing account numbers <img class="alignleft" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SEuXEAoKCnwAACqmgRo1/binary.png?et=qugCdI3AK9nfqEU2tinE1w&nmid=0" border="0">I’ve been reading <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Surely_You%27re_Joking,_Mr._Feynman%21">this</a> and <a href="http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/The_Cuckoo%27s_Egg_%28book%29">that</a> during the weekend. I have just finished the “Safecracker meets Safecracker” chapter of the former and am going to the 16th chapter of the latter. I haven’t managed to finish either book by reading them in parallel. Doing this with intention to get rid of my boredom about my phd research and find some new and fresh subjects, I ended up thinking about cryptography/security, and being paranoid about keeping my stuff safe. Hi hi hi… It’s interesting how people find their way around to crack a safe, guess a password, break into some unauthorized properties and so forth. Feynman used every possible way to crack a safe. He learned the mechanism of every safe he ever found, tried every possible combination, took notes of the last two numbers of every open filing cabinets/safe around, and at the end tried psychology ways such as guessing the owner’s most likely favorite number or searching around for notes in “obvious” places like the edge of a desk drawer o... http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/117/Safecrackers_computer_spies_and_growing_account_numbers Sun, 8 Jun 2008 08:10:17 -0000 Got bored about just everything! <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SEkWRgoKCnwAABBfBCo1"><img class="alignleft" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SEkWRgoKCnwAABBfBCo1/Picture%201.png?et=Izd64aHTT7W7pnNMls7PvA&nmid=0" border="0"></a>I just suddenly got bored about everything! Started from.... this morning!!! The symptoms had showed up since several days ago for no reasons! The only thing I love to do right now is <a href="http://www.plurk.com">plurking</a>, ha ha ha... <a href="http://www.plurk.com/user/chikaradirghsa">join me</a> guys!!! [and entertain me, kikikik...] Meanwhile, I will just spending my time watching tv/movies, read some "weird" books or anything! Any ideas? [Notes: I think this symptoms is infectious. I strongly suspect that I got it from <a href="http://kusprasapta.multiply.com/">my phd fellow</a>. So, beware guys...] http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/116/Got_bored_about_just_everything Fri, 6 Jun 2008 10:52:09 -0000 ITB - mati lampu <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SEE2JgoKCnwAADk1jYA1"><img class="alignright" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SEE2JgoKCnwAADk1jYA1/DSC00654.JPG?et=Dit9kmVbQB8jqOCiT6a3SA&nmid=0&nmid=98744810" border="0"></a>Friday morning. Deadlines. Moody. Electricity black out. Being grumpy. Luckily still have 3-4hours of Mac battery. Do some paperworks and coding. Hiding in the room provided for phd students. Midday. The power still down. Left some of my clerical works unfinished. Oh well. Later noon. Almost everybody left the office after lunch. I decided to spend some time outdoor. Did some reading, listened to some music, enjoying life and forgetting works :D (and the power was still down when I left ITB) The day went fine at the end but I'm not expecting more electricity shut down :P http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/115/ITB_-_mati_lampu Sat, 31 May 2008 11:50:46 -0000 Sr. and Jr. <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SEExvAoKCnwAAGJm8Bk1"></a>In one fine morning after several laps of jogging... I saw a father and a son approaching from the opposite direction... <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SEExvAoKCnwAAGJm8Bk1"> </a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SEEyNQoKCnwAAGJw8xk1"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SEEyhAoKCnwAAGRvGbs1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SEEyhAoKCnwAAGRvGbs1/DSC00571.JPG?et=1Eft%2CdXNJ8rxtNGvPSI3Mg&nmid=0&nmid=98741644" border="0"></a><a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SEExvAoKCnwAAGJm8Bk1"> </a> Thought it was the guy whom I often saw with his two sons every Sat morning. But when they came closer, hi hi hi... It was Ayah and Fizhan, wanted to joining in! <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SEExvAoKCnwAAGJm8Bk1"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SEEyNQoKCnwAAGJw8xk1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SEEyNQoKCnwAAGJw8xk1/DSC00572.JPG?et=tZk%2BEd%2BM5zn%2CnWarOOCPLw&nmid=0&nmid=98741644" border="0"></a> [Jarang2x nih kayak gini, wahaha ah... what a nice surprise, thanks guys!] <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SEExvAoKCnwAAGJm8Bk1"></a> http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/114/Sr._and_Jr. Sat, 31 May 2008 11:23:21 -0000 Sticky Notes vs Mind Maps I managed my things-to-do list using sticky notes cluttering my desktop for almost 3 months and ended up with many things undone. I did some grouping and give different colors for each of them but I could not set priorities. This really drove me crazy and gave me more headache. I gave up using sticky notes, except for some grocery list maybe :D <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SD6NjwoKCnwAADeaUw01"></a><a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SD6PVQoKCnwAAExtTII1"></a><a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SD6NjwoKCnwAADeaUw01"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SD6NjwoKCnwAADeaUw01/Picture%203.png?et=ew%2BHfW1ZsJhix%2CgutR2Agg&nmid=0&nmid=98428944" border="0"></a> Then I put my list on iCal, along with my daily schedule. With iCal I can set the priorities of the task but still, didn't work for me, because I couldn't see the interconnections between tasks, and that made it harder for me to remember and switching between one group of task to another. <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SD6RxwoKCnwAAAaFTKY1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SD6RxwoKCnwAAAaFTKY1/Picture%205.png?et=kwmFo1PsnI9dFF1tRdN3kQ&nmid=0&nmid=98428944" border="0"></a> Then I got back using this perfect tool for my mind, hi hi hi.. because this way I can clearly see things and ideas and task intertwine with each other. Now I can focus on one branch and go deeper without losing the big picture, and get most of my stuff done! Excellent! <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SD6NjwoKCnwAADeaUw01"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SD6PVQoKCnwAAExtTII1"></a> <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SD6NjwoKCnwAADeaUw01"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SD6PVQoKCnwAAExtTII1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SD6PVQoKCnwAAExtTII1/Picture%204.png?et=4jugatrkiLoQ0KwyVWFcfQ&nmid=0&nmid=98428944" border="0"></a> http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/113/Sticky_Notes_vs_Mind_Maps Thu, 29 May 2008 11:32:03 -0000 New great books!!! Yeaaaay, today the books from Auntie Urie finally arrived!!! The first one is this one!!! But, this one is different with the pics I found on the web... <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/hi-res/upload/SDv5MAoKCnwAACPlufw1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDv5MAoKCnwAACPlufw1/DSC00646.JPG?et=pFM6s22SLtzpb0ah2XbV%2BQ&nmid=0&nmid=98098453&nmid=98098453" border="0"></a> It's like this everywhere... <img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDv55AoKCnwAADdvGUk1/1841157910.02.MZZZZZZZ.jpg?et=4pSrqJZEGbUZiXyuxRov%2Bw&nmid=0&nmid=98098453&nmid=98098453" border="0"> Different cover for same title and author??? The second one is the super thick and a every-cool-cryptographer-must-read "Handbook of Applied Cryptography" by Menezes, van Oorschot and Vanstone. About a few week ago <a href="http://niatnulis.wordpress.com/">Budi Sulis</a> let me have a copy of this book (thanks :) ), but now I have the original version! <img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDv8egoKCnwAAHErogk1/book.gif?et=XZYss4a9%2Bi5xO6%2C8VczsgA&nmid=0&nmid=98098453&nmid=98098453" border="0"> The third one is the one I already copied from ITB library last year, "The Language of Mathematics" by Frank Land. I was upset because several pages was missing from the original book and the library only had one copy of the book. But now I have the book! It's an old book though (September 1960), but it's an exceptional reference book. Well, ho ho ho... seems like the pile of book is getting higher, and higher... Enjoy... <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SDv7yQoKCnwAAF6BBtA1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDv7yQoKCnwAAF6BBtA1/DSC00648.JPG?et=Ww8P87caTvPFXv1LF0hRkQ&nmid=0&nmid=98098453&nmid=98098453" border="0"></a> http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/112/New_great_books Tue, 27 May 2008 12:21:06 -0000 Kripto BC3 http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/links/item/12/Kripto_BC3 Mon, 26 May 2008 22:18:26 -0000 How I survived a fight with the 4-year-old I had a fight with the 4-year-old who's been being difficult for about a week now. He's been being super rude and today I was in a really bad mood so the last time he yelled at me, all I can do was crying! He apparently felt sorry to make his mother cry so bad, so then he took several piece of papers, started writing and drawing something, and quietly approaching me and put these drawings in front of me. <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SDliZAoKCnwAAEG4mUE1"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SDliqwoKCnwAAELDoNw1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDliqwoKCnwAAELDoNw1/DSC00642.JPG?et=xtjss%2B%2CL%2CvPWQluScqAmfA&nmid=0&nmid=97756497&nmid=97756497" border="0"></a>the front side <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SDliZAoKCnwAAEG4mUE1"></a> <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SDliZAoKCnwAAEG4mUE1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDliZAoKCnwAAEG4mUE1/DSC00641.JPG?et=ENxw3NcyzlgpDRoOd8k1gw&nmid=0&nmid=97756497&nmid=97756497" border="0"></a>the back side He didn't say anything but from the drawings and the big grin on his face, I know this is one of the best apology I've ever had! http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/110/How_I_survived_a_fight_with_the_4-year-old Sun, 25 May 2008 13:02:12 -0000 Some minor progress <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SDldWgoKCnwAAGBcc9k1"><img class="alignright" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDldWgoKCnwAAGBcc9k1/Picture%201.png?et=8NwiDdgbXPhLrlWnQHgxig&nmid=0" border="0"></a>Have been developing some codes on large integers for the last two weeks, I can only report a minor progress <a href="http://chikaradirghsa.wordpress.com/">here</a>. I definitely have to work harder! http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/109/Some_minor_progress Sun, 25 May 2008 12:48:52 -0000 A Letter for Fizhan <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SDkzWgoKCnwAACYRE6A1"><img class="alignleft" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDkzWgoKCnwAACYRE6A1/DSC00380.JPG?et=HwS9vuZQYFMKxy015v1SNA&nmid=0&nmid=97730753&nmid=97730753" border="0"></a>Hello Fizhan, Having a son is one of the best experience I’ve ever had in my life. Being an only child with no siblings, makes it harder to understand those unpredictable behavior of a little boy. Your older sister is so much like me when I was a kid, so she does not give me as much surprises as you do ;) I don’t know if someday you will bother to read this namby-pamby letter from your mom, hi hi hi.. I think you might be very angry or ashamed if your friends ever read this post and you would probably find a way to delete this, huhahahaa… But anyway, I’ need to express my gratitude to you, since I learn many things from you. Ok, first, here’s what I like about you: You can be both brave and sensitive at the same time. Even though the braveness often freaks me out, you showed me that nothing to be afraid of. Too much worrying about many things will only slow us down. But at the right time, you can be very sensitive, and loving. I cannot count how many times you wipe my tears, how many tim... http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/108/A_Letter_for_Fizhan Sun, 25 May 2008 09:38:44 -0000 A Letter for Syahna <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SDkm@QoKCnwAAEE2VUs1"><img class="alignright" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SDkm@QoKCnwAAEE2VUs1/DSC00430.JPG?et=C11RuhzaL3SjtHWONo8fhw&nmid=0&nmid=97724733&nmid=97724733&nmid=97724733" border="0"></a>I guess not in a very long time from now you will be able to read and understand this posting. And when that time comes, you should be proud of yourself. Yes, this is for you, Syahna. I’ve been bothered by some opinion saying that a woman is better staying at home with their children, and should not working or pursuing higher degree of education. When the issue brought up, I started to contemplate about how good I am as a mother. Then I evaluate how is my relationship with you and your brother. And measure my performance as a mom, asking questions to myself like: am I doing my role well enough, have I made you both happy, do I spend enough time with the family, am I teaching you both lessons and so on. After a while I found out that we’re fine. I might not be the best mom but I’m learning to be a better one. I want to prove that while I’m working and at the same time being a student, I can be good mother. And you know what, most ot the times, I learn things from you. From you, my pre... http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/107/A_Letter_for_Syahna Sun, 25 May 2008 08:46:22 -0000 Lego Squadron Fizhan's newest creative creations of lego squadron! Created in few minutes, different designs, changing all the time. Mennya doesn't think she could make or even imitate one, hi hi http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/album/30/Lego_Squadron Sat, 24 May 2008 04:06:29 -0000 My Pensieve A nice and inspiring blog of Luche. She's my bestfriend and it's been so long since the last time we shared things together, but I was speechless yesterday when I found out that since we both drifted away from each other, she keeps reading my blog(s), and keeps writing about our friendship. Sweet! So we're good ;) Miss u http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/links/item/11/My_Pensieve Thu, 22 May 2008 13:48:01 -0000 Why I never like reunions <img class="alignright" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SC-ltQoKCnwAABf9DOw1/disco-light-left.jpg?et=I8kcvPVIXm0lsKCQwEP0LA&nmid=" border="0">I’m always avoiding reunion for my whole life. I never attend any of those gathering parties that always seem very interesting for everybody else but me. I also missed the most tempting one, last night. I was going to come because my very bestfriend from junior high school told me that it would not be fun for her to come without me. So I just threw away my “i don’t like reunion” feelings, and started asking permissions to my family (the most importantly, my kids, and they wouldn’t allow me!). At the end I decided to stay with the kids, spending a nice and fun Saturday night at home. And it turned out to be the best decision, because my bestfriend called me this morning saying that “you wouldn’t like it anyway because there are so many people who weren't "in the same wavelength" with ours, and they are still the same until today!”. Well, after thinking about this weird and uncommon me, I guess now I can describe why I don’t like reunions. <ol><li>I’m different. I always like different th... http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/106/Why_I_never_like_reunions Sun, 18 May 2008 08:10:16 -0000 Cendekia Open Day http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/photos/album/29/Cendekia_Open_Day Sun, 18 May 2008 04:29:05 -0000 Under construction Re-routed the jogging track this morning, due to this "construction work". <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SC6c8woKCnwAAGJVwUI1"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SC6dYAoKCnwAAGvkHCI1"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SC6dmAoKCnwAAHTOIIg1"></a> <a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SC6c8woKCnwAAGJVwUI1"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SC6dYAoKCnwAAGvkHCI1"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SC6dmAoKCnwAAHTOIIg1"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SC6d3AoKCnwAAHflU401"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SC6d3AoKCnwAAHflU401/DSC00577.JPG?et=lbkhtCKRVbkLomG8NzUYMw&nmid=&nmid=96462181" border="0"></a><a href="/photos/hi-res/upload/SC6dmAoKCnwAAHTOIIg1"><img class="alignmiddleb" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SC6dmAoKCnwAAHTOIIg1/DSC00578.JPG?et=p6ZSsugBeq%2CaYN%2CYaxCrRg&nmid=&nmid=96462181" border="0"></a> This has been going for 3 days and apparently for a few more days, or maybe more than a week. To make it worse, there is a circus going to perform nearby, and they usually will stay for several weeks. Meaning that there will be this constant crowd blocking the way. Then I have to find a more quiet, nice and dust-free jogging track to preserve my "contemplation routine"  for a few more weeks to come :) http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/105/Under_construction Sat, 17 May 2008 09:41:04 -0000 Micro-blogging is also fun! <img class="alignleft" src="http://images.chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/image/1/photos/upload/300x300/SC6jEwoKCnwAAE4qQP41/twitter.jpeg?et=gUpKs2suLMh%2BnG855F3B%2Bg&nmid=" border="0">I've been using <a href="http://twitter.com">Twitter</a> for a couple of days now, and so far still enjoy it, it's fun! http://chikaradirghsa.multiply.com/journal/item/104/Micro-blogging_is_also_fun Sat, 17 May 2008 09:20:38 -0000